(taken when I was boliaoing with JL... =P)

Happy Mid Autumn to everyone!!!
Well, it's actually not Autumn in Australia, it is Spring at the moment, wahahha... but anywayz... can see the moon tonight, tho it's not low and big, but it's round and white!!! woo...
Had such a long day, church was great, today we celebrated the end of 40 days of purpose series... aduh then I overslept for 9 am service, had to go for the 11 am service... then didn't get to watch the kids perform... but anywayz it was all great and cheerful and there were BALLOONS and FOOD... woot woot. =P

However, I asked a good friend of mine to go the 9 am service le... then she was there all by herself...errr felt so so bad... soo soo guilty, then worst... I kept getting run over my sarcastic remarks the whole afternoon, that until a point of time I couldn't take it anymore and cried quietly... aduh... =(

Then today mid autumn, we had pot luck at prasanth's and JL's place for dinner, so I went to get groceries and mooncake after lunch then went home to cook cook then rushed to their place...

So full, I kept eating non stop, and went to carry lantern with some ocfers at carlton gardens. Thank you kelkel for the lantern, it was all cool... then I went back to pras place and eat some more...

The silly thing I did today was I walked right into prasanth's balcony door... "bam" so painful de... got my nose and my forehead iced after that... =/ but it was all funny, heehee... then after slamming into the door I almost fell over the balcony some more, kekeke...

then JL and I got bored... cos ch and shashi gaming, then pras and cy out... sooo we took some pictures, lol... pengz...

Anywayz I had fun today... and very tired and full... this cat cat aka pig pig wanna go sleep liao.
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(woo this is the happy and cute chiew hui and her bdae cake on her bdae... kekeke...ch dun mind me putting this pic up wor!!!)

yada yada... so busy this week... I just finished a test and I think I did crappy in that. Now I have another assignment due...ahhhhhh... Have to go library and do more research. Gee. However something very cool happened to me this week, Esther asked if I wanna song lead in this friday's home cell, and then I thought it was all cool so I agreed. Wakeke, tho have some stuff to prepare, I was actually quite happy and excited about it!

Then then prayed God for songs, and asked him to gimme the courage to pray in front of a group of pple. Then, I found out that my guitar player this Friday, Jacqueline, wahh God bless her, she's soo sooo sooo good in playing guitar... Woo... I am very very happy and felt rather thankful for a sister like Jacqueline. I pray that God give her more opportunities to serve for Him. Then I got Chiew Hui to join too, I thought it's good to let Chiew Hui get the opportunity to pick up from where she left off, as Chiew Hui had been serving in her youth group back in Brunei before she came to Australia. It was all cool, Chiew Hui is quite good at playing too!!! It was such a good job for everyone! I also prayed that Chiew Hui can continue serving and continue learning to know more about God. She's a very special sister and a nice friend to me, despite the occassional teasings, but gaga, oh wellz, thank God that I met someone like Chiew Hui so that I also learn how to tease pple back? Wakekeke...

Yea!!! Tomorrow for home cell I am gonna cook penne in vodka sauce, dunno if it works, but I hope it does. Hee!!!

Ok ok, after all the happy things, back to the serious stuff, gotta do my assignment now... =/
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MOUNTAINS AND OCEANS SEEMS LIKE THERE'S ALWAYS ANOTHER OF ONE OR THE OTHER...

Something very funny happened to me this morning... it was sooo =.=" , I was sleeping so soundly then this guy keeps calling me and keeps asking for Mary... then I keep telling him wrong number, then he message some more... and talk about some florist shop in singapore and some wreath!!! Then I was like... err early in the morning, why talk about wreath... =.=", yea but anyway he was like really desperate or something so I kinda helped him find out the florist shop's number that was suppose to send his wreath? something liddat... then after that he keeps calling me and messaging me and asked for Mary again... err... of course I told him wrong number... then he even got his other friends to call me... soo I was like... =.=" (X100)

Dumdeedum... (back to my life) I am sooo sooo blur these few days, can piakz myself already.
I feel so like a clutz... hmm firstly I broke a plate last week, after that I broke a porcelain cup a few days ago... then last night I broke my favourite glass cup... and this morning, I mistook my lecture for 11am to 1pm when it's actually 10am to 12pm, gee there's something very very wrong with me.

Maybe I haven't gotten over "the episode" of my life yet, or maybe I am just lost, for some reason, I am just lost in my own time and space. But...Somehow, I never lose my sense of wonder(unlike what happened before), instead I found myself waiting and somehow struggling to move on yet I dunno in which direction I am suppose to head.

I realised that I never feared those mountains in the distance this time round. It must have been the work of God, as I felt that he was right beside me the whole time I was struggling to pick myself up.

While I am weary and tired, he was just there to keep me strong and going, as I prayed to him, there's always this strange yet magical feeling that he seems to be carrying me through this time of my life.

It's crossing your fingers when the map doesn't make sense, when the compass doesn't know truly north from truly lost; and it's up to you- you and your gut and your mettle, and your level of resilience, and your wealth of wisdom - to persevere. To get to the other side.

AND of course... with the help of God.
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FOR ALL MEN WHATEVER THEIR CIRCUMSTANCES

Nice warm day today and I only had 2 hours of lectures! Woohoo!!! Was so happy! Then after school I so so so wanted to go to the playground to play, but but there was no one available to accompany me to play, sadz...

Anywayz, went for prayer meeting today and we were praying for Project Hannah (project concerning "poor and tormented" women of the world), oo I was soo shocked that there's a lot of women in the third world countries that are treated so so so brutally and with so very much injustice. "Thank God that I am living in such a blessed and loving environment where women are not really much discriminated against."

After that we had dinner at Lee Yung's place, thank you (to lee yung) for the pasta, it was very nice and thank you (to phillip) for the KFC chicken! AND thank you (to brothers and sisters present there) for the 'fellowship' we had together, wakekeke.

We had music practise after dinner, well I guess it went well for others, however, it didn't go too well for the keyboarders (jessica and I), yikes... So sorry, if I screw everything up on Friday... but I will continue to try my best.

After everything, we had Gelati, wee, this is the third time I went to Al Freddo, in my whole stay in Melbourne... I love ice cream... hmm... *drools... it was soo nice...*saliva dripping

Now I am so so tired, going to sleep after reading the Bible, I cannot tahan already... lemme end this with the "for all men whatever circumstances" prayer. (* the cruelty to women still shakes me)

O God, from whom we all come,
and in whose safe keeping we all are,
I ask You to show your concern for all men,
whoever they may be,
and whatever their circumstances,
by making your ways known to them,
and by giving every nation an understanding of your power to save them.

Also, I pray for the well-being of all Churches,
and ask that they may be guided
and controlled by your good Spirit
in such a way that all who openly acknowledge themselves to be Christians
may led to the right way of looking at the truth,
and hold the Christian faith in a spirit of unity that binds them together in peace, and in genuine goodness of life.

Finally, I commend to your fatherly care and affection
all those who are in physical pain, mental distress, or any other kind of trouble;
I ask You to inspire them with courage,
according to their respective needs,
and save them from despair by enabling them to accept suffering without bitterness or complaint,
and by giving them a happy outcome to all their distress.
I ask this for the sake of Jesus Christ,
Amen.
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HEAVEN

ooook, I am stoning... how is Heaven like? Anyone can tell me?
Haha, well some definitions are:
(1) a place somehow high above the clouds, yet deep inside your soul
(2) a place of complete peace, of total and utter happiness
(3) a place that is greater than the sum of everything you will ever be or could ever imagine to be
(4) a place we all want to get to, but just not yet...

GIVE THE HEAVENS ABOVE MORE THAN JUST A PASSING GLANCE
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wee!!! I got home cooked soup to drink!!!
Soo niceeee... I am soo happy!!! haven't drunk home cooked soup for like centuries!!!
Thank you Kelvin for the soupy!!! Thank you Thank you Thank you!!! Arigato!!! Xie Xie ni!!! I am sure Angeline and Lee they all will be very very happy to drink your soup too!!! It's very nice!!! Wahh!!! Thank you God for such a wonderful Brother!!!
Everything in the world is sooo nicee when you have great friends like this to care and share with you... arrgghh... Thank you Thank you God!

It Only Takes A Spark(Hymn)

It only takes a spark to get a fire going,
and soon all those around,
can warm up in its glowing,
That's how it is with God's love,
once you've experienced it,
You spread his love to everyone;
you want to pass it on.

What a wondrous time is Spring
When all the trees are budding,
The birds begin to sing,
the flowers start their blooming,
that's how it is with God's love,
once you've experienced it,
you want to sing, it's fresh like spring,
I want to pass it on

I wish for you my friend
this happiness that I've found,
You can depend on Him,
it matters not where you're bound;
I'll shout it from the mountain top,
I want my world to know
The Lord of Love has come to me,
I want to pass it on.
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(picture taken from my balcony)
wahh what a tiring day I had today, then to make things worse, I have my physiotherapy prac from 3.15pm to 5.15pm... to end my school hours with. I can sayy... ooo mii goodddnesss... my head was so going to explode with all those bustling activities in the prac room and everyone was like confused and irritated and there was so so much commotion going on as students were arguing with each other, which is the correct way to work the machines (ie Biofeedback, TENs and Interferentials) and the teachers were a lil frustrated cos most of us didn't know our work before we came for prac...

As my day got busier and stressful, I feel that God's presence slowly disappeared and the only thing that went through my mind was... "I am going to get this done... I am going to get that done..." and spoofff... when someone just stepped on my tail, I immediately snapped back and growled at them. Haha, I am like high on my nerves today.

oh wellz but now, I am so glad that I am sitting at home relaxing and trying to tone down the pulse and the blood pressure my head is pumping high with, also munching my subway takeaway, intensifying my saliva against the sweet and scrumptous bread and chicken. hmm... yum yum... then I really thank God for the food that I get to eat.

Then slowly as I relaxed I can feel God's presence again... as if He is telling me to relax and calm down and enjoy the sunset at my balcony! I can see the whole city blanketed with golden rays and it looks so beautiful and serene.
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(forgive my awful drawing... =S)
To those whose hearts have been broken out there...
and also to you, my friend...
remember you shared this book with me?
I am going to share these words back with you.

LOVING MIGHT BE A MISTAKE BUT IT'S WORTH MAKING

Love, Love, Love.
You have to Love,
And if you don't get love right,
You have to Move on
And Forgive.
And then you have to remember
that you've forgiven,
or else you can't move on.
And if you don't move on,
You'll surely end up...
BITTER*

and also... DON'T LET SOME HELL-BENT HEART LEAVE YOU BITTER. (cos it's not worth it)

I hope that you are feeling better,
and remember to continue having faith and hope as HE also has faith in you.
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Happy Sunday! I woke up this morning with the beautiful and warm sun rays seeping through my windows. I love bright and beautiful mornings! Woo... then I was like "Thank you God for the beautiful sun that you made to shine upon the earth, to bring us light and joy!"

Church was great! Chiew Yi and Chiew Hui came too! And the sermon was all cool... and that dreaming Prasanth (*shakes head, see lar never pay attention)... under "Serving Like Jesus means being Available"... and the 2nd barrier to it... he wrote Affectionism instead of Perfectionism... =.=" wakekeke...

Ya and we went for lunch after church... and Chiew Hui, thank you so so so much for scaring me with your Susan and the Doll story, now I dare not step into Taiwan Cafe to eat already. Everyone was staring at me when you made me scream... *bleah.

Also, I dunno what's wrong with you guys... you all keep insulting me, then I was like kek tio by the end of the day. However, thank God for great friends like these who bring joy and laughter into my life. Heehee.

Then I was all happy and grateful that I am still alive, that I have beautiful people around me... as I sit here and think of the beautiful sun that will always shine brightly as how God never gives up on us.
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Hi Hi, it's like hmm... Saturday night to Sunday morning... and I cannot sleep, why why why? Heehee. Oh well, I was like stoned just now, and this thought went through my mind again. It's been donkey years since I have this thought, and this thought just occurs when I am really really stress-free and I have nothing to do and I have always been wondering about this since I was a little girl.

Ever got this thought before... that everything in this world, suddenly just seems to fade away, and as you stare at your ceiling, you feel that this world is so empty, so blank, so fake, that everything is just hollow and then you start to wonder, am I real? why am I here? what am I here for? where was I before I was here? Then there's this rush of butterflies into your stomach and you felt that you are all alone, so alone, that you are left behind, that you are falling and falling and falling down and down into the deep blue sea and then you felt very suffocated and, you are still alone, in this big cold world.

So, why do I get this feeling? Then I started to pray, I asked, "why God? why? why do I get this feeling, why do I feel so alone? why can't I feel your presence? why do my friends seem so far? why does everyone just seem so distant? even I can't relate to my mom anymore, and I can't tell anyone how I feel. It is just a very funny feeling Lord, I wish that I do not exist here, it just feels so miserable. I know that I might be here for your purpose Lord, but what is it? Why do I feel so sad when nothing is even happening to me? Why does my heart seem so crumpled up, like thousands of icy piercings went through it? Why can't I breathe? Why do I have to go through so much that leave all those scars in my heart? Is it for good? The past still haunts me though I tried so hard to forget it... and there will forever be those deep ugly scars there. How can I forget? How does this shape my character? Is it suppose to make me patient and stronger? Willing and wiser? Tender and tougher? So maybe that's what you want me to be like? But still, why must I be all alone here? why can't I feel you walking close to me sometimes? why is there no one at all?"

I was thinking, should I just smile and hide my sadness while talking to God, or should I just show him my true self. Then I just cannot resist the tears that welled up in my eyes... so I just sat there and cried.

Oh well, tonight will be the first night I am starting on the New Testaments in the Bible, so maybe I can find some of my answers there...
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