Why?
Sometimes I dunno why am I suffering so much
I mean not to the extreme
But everyone's enjoying their uni life to a good point
whereas I am dreading mine

Having to wake up at 6 and catch the 7am train EVERYDAY
is not fun at all. (except weekends)
Going for clinics and do lots of physical stuffs with patients,
really test your patience
and wear you out at the end of the day.
Starting around 8am and finishing around 5pm
feels like work torture.

The worse part is *U ARE CONSTANTLY SUPERVISED*
and they mark and grade you at the end of everyday.
Constructive critism is always good,
always a room for improvement.
But Destructive critism
really kills motivation and soul.

It gets worse and worse when u get a *BITCHY* supervisor.
She will just screw up your life and give you nightmares
FULL STOP.

Having to battle with DIFFICULT patients,
trying to motivate and push them to their maximum
functional status doesn't help much at all.
These patients make me feel like I am
talking to a cow or trying to move a brick wall.

This life sucks.
I don't know how long I can hang on in there.
I need sleep.
I need to destress.
I need to feel happier.
I need to laugh. (even my laughs are not real anymore)
I need some love.
I need some friendliness.
I need to stop dropping hair.
I need to stop these pimples from popping out everywhere.

I just need something, someone, anyone, whichever, whatever, whoever to make me feel more positive about myself.

Life is getting to a monotonous point at the moment
that I am just struggling to get each step forwards at a time.
Case presentation is in a week.
Exercise poster is due in 2 weeks.
Gerontology assignment is due in 3 weeks.
EBPP and ethics is due in the next 1 month or so.
An exercise class is to be conducted at the end of may.
After these whole block of assignments and classes in uni.
It's back to clinic blocks again.
I wonder if I am going to do well for musc.
I am really worried.

Back to current status :
I am still worried if I am going to get good marks for
my gerontology block at the moment.
It's just too tiring to think of assignments
when u already have such a tiring clinical block.

I hope I can pass this year properly and graduate properly.
I am dying to just graduate.
Get a job, get a life.
Whatever.

I just want to be happy, stress-free and pass this year.
Is it too much to ask for?
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