I took up knitting and knitted my first ever knitted scarf for you
you never wore it, cos you said you didn't like the color.
I knitted a second scarf for you, this time the color of your jackets
you decided to cut it up out of anger
So I bought more knitting thread and mended the scarf
that has the cut at the side of it, then
you never wore it, cos you said u didn't like the texture.
(this is the softest knitting wool I can find in Melbourne, and it's not cheap)

I hand sewed a 16x16 inch Precious Moment cushion for you,
only to find it hidden away in your wardrobe.

I bought a huge rounded seal that looks cute
cos you told me you like rounded soft toys,
only to find it sitting hidden in your wardrobe too.

I hand made a TEE KOK personalised scrapbook for you
only to find it hidden in this red box which is high up in the cupboard.

Those paper cranes that I hand made for you,
those hand made foam flowers I hand made for you,
that christmas paper boot I hand made for you,
those rounded pink and red couple pigs I bought for you
they are just sitting on your table in Brunei
in which you don't really look at them.

Those hand made cards I hand made for you,
that hand drawn and coloured picture I gave you,
I dunno where they've gone to?

Even the personalised handphone chain with your name on it,
I bet you threw it away.

The Valentine's Day card I gave you this year
was found sitting on the floor in the corner of your wardrobe
That is why I picked it up and displayed it on your table,
so that you will look at it and remember me.
But I guess you have never realised it's there.

I think you don't have the right to scold this "Anon person" who
left a message on my blog saying you are selfish and asking me
to dump you and get a life.

But you know that no matter what,
I won't dump you and I won't get a life
Because I have already given my heart to you
and I have already dedicated my life to you.
So now I am just hoping that you will do the same back to me,
instead of just making empty promises and saying "I LOVE YOU"
Do you actually mean it?
Cos your actions really contradicts what you say.

You always say you sacrificed to come to Australia,
despite you hate Australia to the core.
You are forever using this excuse only.
Did you come to Australia in the first place cos you LOVE me?
Or was it just your emotional rashness took control
and you just wanted to come over to be with this new girl that
you've just decided to go steady with?

Was it love or was it just an act of crush / rashness
that when I reciprocated, you decided to try to fall head over heels
(trying to be) in love with me.
(in other words,
were you in love with love,
or were you in love with me?)
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