One day...
he forgot that I existed
he stopped asking me if i wanted supper,
instead he cooked for himself only.

he only chats to his friends on msn
he stopped chatting to me.
he only smiles to his friends
he stopped smiling to me

he stopped giving me compliments
he only gave sarcastic remarks.
he started seeing everything as my fault
not his.

he stopped seeing my blog as a reflection of our strained relationship
instead he sees my blog as going against him.
he stopped comforting me when I cried
instead he scolds me for crying or even ignores me.

he stopped watching streamed movies with me
he stopped going shopping with me
he stopped agreeing with me
he stopped doing things with me

he stopped wanting to resolve issues
he stopped making promises
he stopped being cuddly
he stopped being close to me

everyday as this happens
my heart gets ripped apart
that's why I am crying everynight
but still he didn't interact with me
he stopped understanding and started to ignore

everyday I watch him smile and swear over msn
everyday my heart gets ripped apart more
as I watch his delightful happy face
the face that I will never forget
the face that I fell in love with at first sight

I don't know how long this is going to last
but I know it's very painful everyday
I promise myself that this is going to be the last relationship
I will have.
I am trying to make this work.
It seems like I am the only one holding on now
He doesn't really see me as his gf
someone that he wants to care and give love to.
It seems like I am clinging on too much,
and getting disappointed everyday.

Maybe I should let go soon...
cos I am getting really tired.
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